My Not So Glorious Return

Guess what. My slimy ass has crawled back in here...I need somewhere to get this off my chest. And frankly...i don't feel like talking to many people. As you can see, that hasn't changed in the least. However...many other things have changed. I'm now a trekkie. The only thing I have to say about that is that i wish I hadn't disregarded that show earlier. It has changed gravely how I think and percieve this so-called life. And little things suddenly no longer matter. I can 'see' beyond what is there...I really can't explain it, so bear with me if you don't understand. I joined another forum...and I could not be feeling that much better. It really helps me get some stuff off my chest...when I didn't turn to this blog. It has been four months since I came here...and I have changed. For the most part, I think, for the better. I went to World Youth Day, and this has put things in a new perspective for me. Seeing the Pope, at no matter the distance..well, made my heart smile. Spiritual side..not really. But we need something to believe in...and as my faith waivered...this was the right cure. Music has suddenly become more bland in my eyes..and thusly I am turning to anime. How I missed this fair mistress. I've focused on Cowboy Bebop, Hellsing and Trigun. Each of different genre, yet each appealing in their own ways. Continuing, I should start my volunteer work sometime in the next two weeks. That really means no more, summer, but servitude. I don't really despise it. It couldn't hurt to do the community a favour once in a while. I feel pretty good...so why is it that I can't smile?